You Live Only Once

Kalau takdirnya itu rezeki mu

2011-10-13T20:47:00.001+08:00

Berjujai airmata bila surat tu aku terima, berjujai juga airmata menghubungi ibu memaklumkan berita gembira. Berjujai juga lah airmata bila anak2 terutama yang kecil berkata.." Ibu jangan la pergi...sebulan tu lama". Pesan orang tua kalau di rumah x redha dengan pemergian, biar ditangguh dulu hajat. Lantas anak2 ku pujuk, bukan ibu pergi lama, bukan juga ibu pergi bersuka ria. Banyak benda ibu nak bercerita denganNya di sana, banyak jugalah dosa ibu nak pohon ampun dariNya di sana. Banyak doa nak di pinta pendek cerita, bermacam-macam benda nak diluahkan di sana. Moga bila dekat dgnNya nanti, dibuka jalan penyelesaian dan diterangkan hati untuk meleraikan kekusutan jiwa. Terima kasih kepadaNya mengurniakan rezeki ini di muka pintuku..dalam aku sedih sayu mengenang itu belum rezekiku, sedang aku pilu mengenang entah bila masa untuk menjejak rumahNya...Kau lambaikan jemputan ke pintuMu..alhamdullillah..terima kasih....alhamdulillah..itu saja yg mampu ku ucap ..bagi membalas rezekiMu kepadaku.Moga pergiku dengan berkatmu..moga ibadahku Kau terima, moga mabrur perlaksanaannya....amin. Buat keluarga yang ku tinggal, doakan moga perlaksanaannya sempurna . Andai perginya itu kembali tiada, pohon dihalalkan semua...percayalah..ibu tetap sayang semua.

Baking Frenzy

2011-07-22T03:12:00.000+08:00

I found a few good reliable recipe that require a few ingredient that not realy easy to find esp @ my home

area so i googled a bit and made a new discovery..hope you like it :

BUTTERMILK

Have heavy cream in the fridge? If so, you have everything you need to make real buttermilk

Once you see how easy it is to make buttermilk, you'll want to make your own everytime. Here's how:

Prep Time: 10 minutes

Total Time: 10 minutes

Ingredients:

Heavy cream (avoid ultra-pasteurized)

Preparation:

1. Fill a jar halfway with heavy cream. Then, screw the lid on firmly (a canning jar works well for this purpose).

2. Start shaking the jar back and forth. After several minutes, the cream will thicken and turn into whipped cream. Keep shaking until the whipped cream is replaced with a yellow glob (butter) and a separate liquid (buttermilk).

3. Pour the buttermilk out of the jar, and use it in any recipe that calls for buttermilk.

To Use the Butter: Knead it under cold water for a couple minutes to remove any remaining buttermilk (it will spoil very quickly, if you don't). Then, salt (if desired), and store in the refrigerator until you're ready to use it.

BUTTERMILK SUBSTITUTE

Making a recipe that calls for buttermilk? Use this simple substitute, and you won't need to buy any:

Prep Time: 5 minutes

Total Time: 5 minutes

Ingredients:

Milk (just under one cup)
1 Tablespoon white vinegar or lemon juice

Preparation:

1. Place a Tablespoon of white vinegar or lemon juice in a liquid measuring cup.

2. Add enough milk to bring the liquid up to the one-cup line.

3. Let stand for five minute. Then, use as much as your recipe calls for.

HEAVY CREAM INFO

Almost all dairy companies sell heavy cream in pint cartons. It is the the top of the milk skimmed off that can be made into whipping cream or if shaken or mixed enough made into butter. I use it in my homemade caramels. It is very delicious but not the healthiest thing to eat all the time because it contains a lot of cholesterol. Children in elementary school here usually have the opportunity to shake it into butter in their classrooms so they can see how butter is made, then get to eat it on crackers. You will find it in any stores dairy cooler section.

The brands would vary depending which area of the country you live as dairy companies do not sell world wide, usually just locally. Here are a few from my area, Shroeder's, Kemp's, Dairy Fresh.

Report card day

2011-06-22T13:40:00.006+08:00

It was a busy day that day...in the morning there was an interview that i need to attend then later on off to my kids school to meet their teachers and discuss their progress with their class teachers. I was running late actually, the meeting ends at 12.00 but i reached the school at 1 pm. Hastily i ran the stairs and intended to go to Irfan's first but then i have a change of heart and decided to go to Najma's. Surprisingly i saw my daughter sitting on her chair, still waiting for me. She was happy i came at last regardless i'm late. Her face light up and that jubilee face full of smiles while she told her classmate (there are 4 of them still around since their parents were unable to come) that i'm her mother. That happy face of my daughter bring me back down memory lane on my own report card days.

You see, my father was a very busy guy and my mum ..well although she's a 'domestic manager', she can't drive at that time and we only have one car back then. I remember my father used to give these answer when i asked why he never came to my class or even come during appreciation day. He answered " You always get the best results in your exam..it's nothing new, so unless it's your brother then i'll come". What he meant was that, i always get good result in my exams but never in sports..it's the other way around with my brother, he excell in sports. So unless i get a reward for sports , my father will come. The thing is, i suck in sport!.

Soon it became a habit to me not to have my parents to come during report card day,even during my diploma graduation!. and the reason i stay focus on my studies is because only through that i know at least i'm better in other field if compared to my brother. It's some sort of motivation to me. Don't get me wrong, I have no grudge towards my dad, in fact because of that i can relate and understand how one child felt being 'different'. As i grew up, i make a promise to myself that regardless of my child's ability, i am not going to differentiate them, in fact motivate them so they know that they do not need to be a genius to get my love and attention. They already have my love and attention by simply being my children regardless their ability.

The story doesn't end here actually, after meeting with Najma's teacher, we went to see Irfan's. Irfan's actually were rehearsing his choral speaking . The tournament is today. My son is very active in his extra curricular activities that it affected his studies...and yes he excell in his extra curricular activities, the last competition he participate, he won!. Najma on the other hand choose to focus on her study, she gets no 9 for her class and 11 for the whole standard 3 (total student for the whole standard 3 is 176 students). Both shows their capability in different field. Regardless of that..both have my love and definitely my attention.

So friends, if you have any children, please do not differentiate them regardless of their ability or whatever traits that separate them from others. These children are God's gift to us and for that we must appreciate them.

Perth Experience

2011-05-20T06:05:00.002+08:00

The things that i can say about Perth are :
1. A city that is well planned
2. A city that encourages art

My first day was spent around city of Perth, Swan Bell Tower, ROC candy making just to name a few that i do. Second day was Freemantle..layback city. got the opportunity to play didgeroo..wow..make a fool out of myself!hahahahaaa...Third day is the adventure day..full of kagaroos, koalas, sheep shearing, BBQ australian style and scenic moments at Kings Park. The fourth day is dolphin watching!!!. Let me share you the memories i had. Enjoy the pictures frenz!

before i ask sum1 with this trait as my staff..i must first have it

2011-04-10T11:53:00.002+08:00

i was having brunch @ secret recipe when i learn that one of the staff is actually leaving to further his study. today is actually his last day yet he's working like he is still coming to work tomorrow.that intrigued me so i ask him why...why work you ass out eventhough today is your last day?. he gave me this answer "until my shift is over , then my responsibility as a staff here will end...untill then i carry the responsibility that i'm expected to shoulder".i like this kid..at this age he has shown the traits that can carry him miles away.i'll remember his name, his face so in case in future i have the capacity..i want this boy as one of my staff, in my team as my collegue. that reminds me sumething...before i ask anyone to have this trait..i must first embeded it within me. as for you kid...good luck ..i wish you the best in your future..in your career.your parents must be proud to hv you as a son..coz if i'm your mother...i sure do!

It's good to send ur children to school..it reminds you you're a mother

2011-03-08T13:43:00.002+08:00

This morning i decided to sent Najma to school since Irfan was not around and i just don't feel comfortable her walking alone to school. The thing is that my to do list today has 8 top priority that need my upmost attention before 8.30am (that is when the big boss entered the office), so i want everything is on his desk by the time he entered his space. I was so into my to do list while driving (it just obvious i'm not really paying attention on the road), i forgot Najma was with me!. Only until she said "Ibu, are we goin to your office first ?" then i realize my daughter was sitting behind me waiting to be sent to school!..Ya Allah!!!, so i turned back and say sorry (tons of it) to Najma. The words that come from her gives this great undescribeable stab in my heart. She said " It's Ok ibu, i know you're busy but still you want to send me to school, that shows me you love me. Next time i'll be independant so that you don't need to worry about me. I'm sorry ibu". Nak menitik air mata aku dengar anak cakap macam tuh...that very sentence remind me that above all.... I AM A MOTHER. and above all else...Thank you ALLAH for giving me this special child as my daughter, for giving me the opportunity to be a part of this family. Thank you KZ Clan...thank you Tuanku KZ. Rezeki orang memang lain-lain....this is the rezeki Allah bagi kat aku...alhamdulillah.

Best food found in Jb....pls advise on KL area

2011-03-07T08:21:00.002+08:00

i love food..it's almost like a neverending burning passion to search for good food and sometimes good healthy food as well (i'm almost 40 k..so 'the healthy' must be there too (^_~)V ). so these are the list of food i like at JB area and yet to find in Klang Valley. So frens, these are the list that i need your help to update me:

1.  (JB) Indian food ~ Bindu , Chakra   Klang Valley Area ~ Pepper's Cafe _Solaris Dutamas (you should try the kulfi!)
2.  (JB) Nasi Beriani ~ BBU   Klang Valley Area ~   HFY
3.  (JB) Martabak ~ Kg Melayu (in front of Masjid)   Klang Valley Area ~   HFY
4. (JB) Asam Pedas ~ Botak   Klang Valley Area ~   HFY
5.  (JB) Mee Bandung ~ Taman Scientex   Klang Valley Area ~ Lot 10 Kg Bakar Baginda
6.  (JB) Roti Nan and Tandoori ~ CheesePrata (near Jusco Plentong)   Klang Valley Area ~ Food Court Pr16, Arab rest (Pr 15).
7.  (JB) Chinese Food esp dim sum ~ Puteri Pan Hotel    Klang Valley Area ~   Homst (no dim sum..sorry)
8.  (JB) Mee rebus ~ ZZ rest.    Klang Valley Area ~  HFY
9.  (JB) Steak ~ Kg Melayu   Klang Valley Area ~   Victoria
10. (JB) Otak-otak ~ Kempas arrr (some prefer Angsana)   Klang Valley Area ~ Downtown PJ
11.  (JB) Dessert ~ Season   Klang Valley Area ~  Sweet chat
12.  (JB) Pastries ~ Season (esp the curry puff..arghhh), Delifrance   Klang Valley Area ~  Delifrance (thank god!), Putrajaya Central
13.  (JB) Satay ~ (morning only) Pasar Tani Pasir Gudang   Klang Valley Area ~  Willy Sg Ramal,(Tuanku KZ prefer Samuri)
14.  (JB) Laksam ~ Pasar Malam (Friday only) Taman air Biru   Klang Valley Area ~ Tanah Runtuh Pr 9
15.  (JB) Nasi Kerabu Pasar Malam (Friday only) Taman air Biru   Klang Valley Area ~ Gate 1 and Tanah Runtuh
16.  (JB) Seafood ( my mum of coz!!!!!). No one can compare (sorry guys but do suggest)
17.  (JB) Nasi Dagang ( my mum in law of coz!!!!) No one can compare (sorry guys but do suggest)
18.  (JB) Karipap ~ Angah Pasir Gudang    Klang Valley Area ~ Sup Power Kg Bakar Baginda ( at  1.00 pm only while stock last, which usually last less than 10 minutes).
19.  (JB) In promptu lunch (means places that change it's menu every day every week) ~ HFY    Klang Valley Area ~ Alang Putrajaya (aka rest bunian @ tapak sulaiman?)
20.  (JB) Nasi goreng Seafood ~ Tanjung Langsat Port    Klang Valley Area ~   HFY

So frenz, pls update me k...Thanks a zillion!!!

Relationship..the ups and down. A view fr a bystander

2011-02-26T12:25:00.001+08:00

Relationship to me defined as an intangible connection that relates between two individuals that based on trust, compromising and accepting the better half as who and what he or she is. The recipe to make it work differs from one couple to others yet it is still evolve around those three pillars i note above. What struck me in awe is when one half is willing to suffer in accepting the other half's substance yet being ignored of the necessities that requires by the acceptor. Can you understand what i'm trying to say here?.Well it is not really a riddle that need an Eintein to crack, you just need to understand the scenario why i wrote this. and those who understand it knows who they are. My best advise?...decide and decide well you must, stick with that decision is the foremost important thing. wish you luck hon!

~a 37 year old kakak who has being watching for quite some time~

A DejaVu feelin

2011-02-15T17:52:00.000+08:00

To those who frequented my home back in Kluang during my teen days, you might have the liberties to experience 'the debate' between me and my dad. The debate will always won by my dad regardless all the facts i gave because my dad being him..he will give this one point that slash out my earlier facts, whether the fact is fictious or real, my dad has these expertise in making it seems real.

Now that he passed away (7 years now ~alfatihah), the thing i misses most is to have that same debate experience, the same adrenalin rush the same eagerness, desire to give the one fact that kills the debate. Never had the opportunity until now. The only difference is that the role is reverse, now i took my dad's role while my role took by....my own son. The feelin is like deja vu with a twist. My husband always ask me whether Irfan will grow up to be the school's debator like me ..hahahahah...who knows?? another anugerah debat perdana on the shelve? well if u ask me 1 debator in the hse is enough...@ tuanku KZ perlu menguatkan jantung , he seriously need it ~ LOL ~

2 cents opinion of my former bosses ~ a compilation

2011-02-08T23:16:00.002+08:00

My first job was in banking line and that was 1996.All in all, i have been working for about 15 years!. Along the road i met numerous bosses that colours my journey till today. Among all these bosses, there are those that leaves gr8 impact on my stand and belief in managing my career so let me share it with you guys :

1. Never let others take your role or you will cease to exist;

2. When you work as a team...YOU WORK AS A TEAM;

3. The 1st reason in failing on an assignment start with C : Communication;

4. Embark on a role as a bridge that connects between one point to another;

5. No human is perfect thus the loophole of your team is where you cover with your strength;

6. Find one's strength, fully utilize it to ensure the success of an assignment;

7. Never bad mouth your bosses

8. Black is black, white is white, wrong is wrong, right is right.

along these 15 years, i met a variety character of bosses too, you name it fr the kind that throw files even to the extend of the most lenient one. But among those , there is this 1 that i will never forget~the one who asked me that "you have to go to the length of infinity in satisfying your customer's needs". Sorry hon..customer's satisfaction to me is if it doesn't clash with my principal, belief and faith. Heard he is now being posted at an oversea branch..i wonder the kinda hell he's giving the staff over there...(LOL). For those who comes fr my 1st job (you guys know who you are)..let us wish this former boss of us has change his customer service motto for the sake of his staff sanity! .

Anyong Haseyo!!!

2011-02-06T16:17:00.001+08:00

We just came back fr our vacation at Seoul, South Korea and my my my it was a gr8 5 days to start my new year wif my hubby. Learn a few Korean words so let me share these words for you guys whoever planning to go there :

Hi/Hello/Good Morning : Anyong Haseyo

Miss : Onni

To address a guy : Uppa

Asking how much : Eolmayeyo

Asking for a discount : Kakajuseyo

Thank you : Kamsa Hamnida

Buying things there are fun..the cheapest souvenir u could find would be 5000 korean won which equivalent at our time there is RM15. The souvenir that you can buy for friends are like : Korean ginseng tea (which they are very proud of), leather syillings pouch, magnetic fridge @ keychain (too common rite ?..but hey buy those with the picture of people wearing hanbok~i bought those for my friends),bookmark of hanbok and tons of ginseng candy (taste of coz like ~ ginseng!) and spoon (funny?..the unique part of these spoon is that they have a long handle and they do not have fork as pairs to the spoon ok) plus teaspoon. The places you can buy these things are : Namdaemon @ Dongdaemon. If you're going to buy the spoon, i would suggest @ Dongdaemon Level 5, there is a souvenir shop (choose the right hand shop instead of left one~ the owner is much nicer and patient with customer).The price of the spoon there is 1000 korean won compare to Namdaemon 2000 (i bought the spoons for myself). As for others, well you can just buy those at either place, the price makes no difference.

Weather wise?..when we're there it was -14 C...hahaha i was like freezing to death with the climate but that's the whole point i went there. To feel how winter felt!. Allah even grant my main wish ~ to experience snow falls. I experience that while at Everland!.I even got to ski at Jisan Ski resort and luckily i did not fall (i won't tell you the tricks guys~it's a secret!). Alhamdulillah..at least now when my husband tell tale about winter etc i can relate to it somehow.So i attach a few pic i took while i was there. Hope you guys enjoy the pic!

@ Cheonggye Stream..the 2nd reason i want to come here

wif my hubby at shooting location of Jewel in the Palace

I was here in 2006, i was pregnant 3 mth that time!!

@ Nami Island

KZ @ business hub Seoul

the city's building is fascinating fr here!

wif Im Hae Yoon aka Jennifer our tourist guide

It's SNOWING!!!

grrrrrrrr...cold..cold...cold

@ Namdaemon n Myongdong

This is real snow!

@ Dongdaemon

Everland..my 2nd time

I was so in to that cotton candy..didn't realize when this was snap

I'm skiing..and i didn't fall!!

Kimchi!!!

No execution without the green light

2011-01-26T15:41:00.000+08:00

I may not have issues...but others may
I may not have difficulties but others may
I may not agree with you but others may
I may say 'let us exchange portfolio' as you may say 'y don't you take my portfolio'

Mariah Carey - Angels Cry ft. Ne-Yo

2011-01-24T06:06:00.000+08:00

I'm almost 40 but this pimple never ceased!!

2011-01-21T19:54:00.000+08:00

My age?..let me be straight...i'm 37...damn proud of that number as well. What i'm not proud of is that i hv to deal with this stupid pimple for almost 3 months niw..guess where it is...right at my forehead..at the centre of my forehead!!...com'on man, another 3 years i'll be 40..i repeat that : 40 (forty) and dealing with pimples is like reliving teenage time...hate it!. i guess the only thing left now is ...nothing!.gosh..what a life..1 heck fun life ! (~_^)V

Finally, he's coming

2011-01-20T05:16:00.000+08:00

at first the whole plan was going there relive the memory and add skiing experience with strangers but by the turn of fate KZ is going together. That would be an awesome experience ..sharing memories with your love ones. A bit dissapointed though that KZ clan can't follow yet i'm looking forward to bring the whole family to have the experience that i have, maybe next time we will choose spring, it ought to be beautiful over there at that time. Ops by the way, we're going during winter actually...me n KZ. Pray everything goes well..Wish me fun and an everlasting experience with my dear hubby guys!!!

Our daily joke..the Kz clan's

2011-01-13T06:04:00.000+08:00

I belief every family hv their own family joke. Like the gr8 KZ, the KZ clan also hv our own joke.. These are among few that we use on daily basis. Enjoy guys!.

Situation : inside a Malay voice over elevator
Lif : Naik ke atas
KZ clan : Langit

Lif : Turun ke bawah
Kz clan : Bumi

Situation : inside an English voice over elevator

Lif : Going up

KZ clan : To heaven

Lif : Going down

KZ clan : Town

Situation : Seeing anyone standing like posing

Kz clan : Itu pose nak masuk Glam

In case you didn't get these joke...well like the gr8 KZ always say : U hv to b there 2 understand the joke. >;))

Comparison between Samsung Tab and IPad

2011-01-12T06:42:00.001+08:00

I receive the same letter too

2011-01-11T21:34:00.000+08:00

i note ur point fr. i did. at the same time let me put it at this perspective, the instruction is clear..it's not about demoralizing any1 or belittle any1.y don't we use it as a medium to support ourselves when we carry out the instructions?..why must one be a pessimist when it comes to this?..turn the table and use it as a tool of motivation. after all, you only get the letter, i got the letter and the lecture!!!

Compilation of my husband's jokes

2011-01-10T15:06:00.000+08:00

This year will mark our 12th years of marriage (although not by month). 12 years and 3 great and talented offsprings is not the only great things in my life's journey. My husband likes to crack jokes although for those who doesn't know him might have an offtrack first impression's. Being scarcastic did shape a lot of his jokes so now let me share with you the most patented jokes he uses on daily basis..his trademark jokes i called it . Enjoy!!

Situation : When the food serve is hot from the kitchen.
A : Panas la nasi/ lauk ni
En KZ : Ambik Payung

Situation : When ask to describe a person over and over again
A : Besar mana orangnya?
En KZ : Besar gobok baju ni ha.

Situation : When we dine out at a wifi restaurant
A : En nak order apa?
En KZ : Saya nak free weefee.

OR

Situation : Paying our bills at a wifi restaurant
En KZ : Mana free weefee saya?.

Situation : Ordering drinks and we took a long time to order
En KZ : Hah mintak air bateri, air hujan, air sungai...dah!

Situation : When choosing the colour of fabric
En KZ : Warna paddle pop ader?

This is the most classic of all...i call it lawak 'pat'
Situation : When complimenting a well groom hand
A : Cantik tangan dia kan...mesti lembut tangan dia
En KZ : Yup...confirm lembut cam pat
Note : 'Pat' means kera, monyet dan yang sekutu dengannya in his hometown

Now frenz..don't get me wrong..these jokes is not my husband's weakness...it's what makes him dear to my heart...Happy anniversary in advance En KZ!!!!

Reminding myself why i need to do this

2010-11-13T15:12:00.000+08:00

In many task that i have been assigned before , there 2 task that i detest the most...asset related and financial related. This habit of mine to do things right the first time and detailing strategies and approach sometimes seen as something that like a burden to me although that's the very reason i was assigned to such assignments. Let me ask this question, how many of you out there really have the guts to let someone like my traits to do your asset auditing as well as supervise your financial matters?. sometime people just want to make it simple. to my opinion making it simple is fine as long as the whole procedure is obeyed. Most people have the knack of simplifying things and overruled the procedure...that is like giving your neck on the chop board! I wish i can do something else, let me tell you something, the reason why i'm good in those field because i learn from all the mistakes i done along the way of my early career, that took 6 years of perfecting!!!.That's the reason i need to learn other stuff...it's all due to my passion for knowledge.

Knowing when to grab the oppurtunity

2010-07-30T10:46:00.000+08:00

I was struck standing up this morning when i learn sume1 emailing the whole org abt sumthing that i hv been organising fr scratch. That small act the person did has gave the impression that, that person was the one handling the case from core and that small act has left my name out of the whole big pic. Crap! now being a realist i judge that person as one heck of oppurtunist that knows when n where to strike and thus that small act regardless how much has damage my name (and of coz the recognition that was suppose to be mine) as one brilliant act. That's is how the world evolve!....again as an idealist i came back to the root of nature that what comes around goes around....and as sume1 who have strong faith in Allah, i forgive that person and pray that when law of nature comes to that person.....the lesson will be learnt.

Let there be those

2010-05-11T17:43:00.000+08:00

let there be those who dares to dream high
let there be those who set the benchmark
let there be those who dares to say the truth
and
let there be those who dares to listen
for the truth that must be told

Reminding myself first then others

2010-05-06T23:40:00.000+08:00

Do u hv guts to listen the stuff that u need to hear instead of what u wanna hear?. Sometimes i do, sometimes i don't. There are times that i only wanna hear WHAT i WANT to hear but my nature will soon creeping up and at the end i still want to hear what i NEED to hear regardless the pain i know i goin to hv afterwards.Feeling down after that??OF COZ!!..but i'll be ok after a few hours if not days..but trust me it will never be 1 year. I have been in that 1 year depression after SPM, so don't bluff me about it.been there done that.thank god my religion foundation is strong enuff to forbids me doin sumthing stupid.as always, it's either being the black sheep or pretending it's ok for the world to be that way. hmmm...what else new?

Kenapa hati nih masih tak mahu dipujuk

2010-04-15T19:56:00.000+08:00

Buat kerje kena ikhlas, supaya dari keikhlasan itulah dikumpul menjadi ibadah yang digunakan sebagai bekalan nanti. Tapi hingga ke hari ini..masuk hari ke 2, hati ini masih sedih, seolah-olah tak mahu dipujuk. Dah berkali-kali aku kata.."sudahlah..tu dah memang bukan rezeki kamu, kenapa lagi nak fikir?" tapi sehingga ke saat blog ni di tulis, hati tetap pedih, tetap sedih. Dari dulu kwn2 dah pesan, tak usah lah beria, penat kau sorang aje, tengok kan sekarang kau jugak yang kecewa. Kenapa?kenapa hati ini degil untuk menerima pujukan? Kenapa hati ini rajuknya tak padam2? Seolah2 apa yg kau tabur sebenarnya punya muslihat, punya tujuan..Bukankah itu ternyata ianya tak ikhlas...itu pasal Allah tetapkan...REZEKI TU BUKAN KAU YANG PUNYA. You should learn your lesson!

There must always someone to rely on

2010-04-06T21:38:00.000+08:00

i have to clear up these mess the previous officer done, and she obviously not helping when all that come out of her response is negative..the kinda people who obnoxiuosly bubbleheaded belief the world evolve around her kinda person. i had enough of all these nonsense until i answer her sms "Dik kenapa kamu biadap sangat"...nah hambik!!!..maybe all these while people let you be like that becoz 'kesian'..but hey..PTD like you make the other PTD look like ...... (fill in da blank).i can only pray (since i f i called she won't answer or just hang up - a sign of immaturity and unprofesionalisme brat) that she'll learn her lesson..in what ever manners possible..as long she learn it!!amin...

Having a new passion

2010-03-07T19:04:00.000+08:00

It's been quite some time since i last posted anything here. guess what? i hv a new passion now...should thank a friend of mine ~ Aida for it. She inspire me by having an obsession abt it. at first i was like...."er...ok", then i saw the art and beauty of the art. i guess as time pass by it slowly seep into my brain..since i do love knitting, crochetting ,sewing and everything that has to do with it...so why not add another skill to my belt rite?....oppss i forgot to tell you what is this new passion is. I want to learn to sulam manik!. Not paying others to do it.!! Puh lezzzz....i'm doing it myself!!! Yezzzzzzzzaaaaaaaaaaa!!! now i'm searching high and low for a 'guru' to teach me!!....JIA YOU!!!

High expectation....what expectation?

2010-01-20T16:52:00.000+08:00

with 9 yrs of experience in govt and 5 yrs of private, the expectation for this new job is very gr8 for a petit lady like me.can i at least match the minimum par of my bosses?. remembering the mantras all my previous bosses once gave me "learn to work with each other regardless of our differences" ,"even if u r rite, advise ur boss smartly, let him take it fr there", "always become a bridge never the destroyer", "give ur best, let God do the rest".Amin

Try ur best, let Allah do the rest

2010-01-11T21:24:00.000+08:00

i pray hard for 5 things this year, i got my first which is securing a house for my family..although it's only a 3 bedroom apartment, i am nw trying and praying hard to get my dream hse. 1 down....4 more to go...amin.

Will i be like them??

2010-01-01T18:43:00.000+08:00

It is darn easy to say.."I WILL NOT BE LIKE THAT GUY". Then again when the situation comes, which hat will i wear, does my will as strong as my word ?. I just read a friend's blog arguing abt LNPT aka appraisal, which i TOTALLY AGREE. Let me tell you what happen to me about 6 years back.....something abt this appraisal stuff.

I had back then this particular 1 staff who happen to be 90% at home..may i repeat that.... AT HOME DURING OFFICE HOUR...caught him red handed myself with his kain pelekat ( he was staying within the proximity of our office..quarters!! go figure). I had enough with his antics so all his wrongdoings was noted inside my 'black book', When the time comes i asked each of my staff to appraise themself and DARN..he gave himself a perfect 10 regardless his ................ (may i please leave this blank). So since i did a face to face LNPT, i asked him why do i hv to agree with this full mark of his...he kept rambling abt what he has done (actually that is what the other staff was doing ..covering him up)..he kept talking until i open my black book and lay down 1 by 1 of his err. Needless to say, i gave him a mere 60 mark...cruel? not to me. What surprise me is when my superior ask me to change it because...."you don't do that in the govt"....BULL!! No wonder the productivity was below par!...now..here come the best part!. I did not change the mark i gave, and i end up facing my KP at Putrajaya justifying myself why i gave him such low mark...I JUSTIFY MYSELF...not THAT GUY!!.

That was the time when i realise that if these situation continues, the govt goes...down the drain!!!.Being strong headed even with a cause will get you marked by ppl. I was called "the rebellious adik" among my collegue ( i was junior in age compare with my collegue) and "the heartless datin ah soh" by the people from my office (by the way ppl...i forgave u all). Well, if i believe i am right...let all hell let loose...and let face the world alone when the world turn it's back on me! But do be reminded that walking alone is no fun...only those with strong will and support from ur love ones will give you strength. Been there, done that..no fun but right is right, wrong is wrong and the truth will come out at the end.

Coming out of my comfort zone

2010-01-01T17:55:00.000+08:00

It's like DPA all over again, the uncertainty, the chaotic..well since i strongly believe it's 10% that i can't control another 90 is mine to adhere, i lay down my plan...A,B,C so whichever the situation requires, i just need to choose just 1. if luck on my side, i may create another plan...1 that design to cater my family and my need. HAH!!

So what next

2009-12-29T13:35:00.000+08:00

Before i came to Putrajaya this morning i listed my "To Do List". Not much achieved, i manage to do just 4 which 2 is all administration stuff plus 1 personal...about my application on quarters. another 1 is more an adhoc that i did impromptu out of desperation. At the end of the day, still not a productive day to my standard. Making list has become a habit hard to kick for me..a guide for the rest of my day. Even with this list, the outcome is not as what i hoped for...putting it in a positive perspective, i tried my best.. The rest now....is up to Allah. May He bless me. I need my family to be here with me..they are my pillars of strength and sensibility. Please...have mercy.Amin.

Let ur action reflect ur word

2009-12-02T20:07:00.001+08:00

what can i say today??? tons of words and without action.such a waste

How to tell them?

2009-12-01T23:19:00.000+08:00

How to tell ur children ..
that u hv to extend ur course
when u promise them you'll be back by next week.

How to tell the coordinator..
that certain time the priority changes
so kindly do not change the schedule
for it interupts and hurt my love ones.

How to tell ur husband
that a promise made has to be broken
since u hv no power to alter
when suppose to be the end of this sadness.

How to tell urself
that eventhough u know
that u cannot control only 10%
while the rest of 90% is in ur grasp
yet this mere 10%'s impact
shattered ur world
collide with everything u hold dear

How to tell?

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One mother's tale

2009-11-25T09:49:00.001+08:00

Let me tell you of one mother’s tale
It started when her son told her ,
That he doesn’t want to go home,
Even after scoring 2 goals for his team.
Her eldest daughter then told her,
How she has to pull out her own tooth.
Followed by the youngest one ,
Who told her how she cried on her brother’s lap,
Because she’s afraid by the sound of thunder
All because.....the mother is away
The climax of the tale
When one morning her son called and told her
“I heard dad cried “Allah” and then he went silent”
“I open the bathroom’s door, and found him on the floor”
“So i called the ambulance, they came and took him away”
“I can’t follow them....because mummy is away”
Silently the mother prays
“In all the things i have done wrong “
“I must have done a good deed”
“For god bless me with these children”
“Who matures beyond their need”
“For these gifts i received”
“Thank you Allah..for giving us the strength.”
And may this tale never to repeat to any mother... ever again.

Kekarutan nasi tambah

2009-11-24T13:02:00.000+08:00

Kalau boleh satu perkataan digunakan menggantikan kekarutan itu, maka kesombonganlah perkataan yang sesuai digunakan. Memang senang apabila kita tugasnya hanya mengarah mengubah aturan kehidupan orang lain yang sudah tentu mempunyai rancangan kehidupanya sendiri.

Thinking startegically

2009-11-23T19:43:00.000+08:00

I hate doing things that i don't like to do...especially when i have planned my coming life ahead . Not only it disrupt my schedule, it also consume me (in anger). Let us think why on earth these people design this 'EVENT'. If no one, i repeat no one ask for exemption , then that means everyone has done their research and this week is suppose to be a 'WEEK OF HEAVEN', so i DO BELIEVE WE NEED TO SEEK FOR EXEMPTION BY CREATING WHATEVER APPOINTMENT . Phew!!! that was mouthful...isn't it?. Then again....how many of us is as daring as i am?...(sigh)

Bringing in talian hayat

2009-11-20T01:49:00.000+08:00

It's almost 1 and a half decade i hang my dancing shoe, so when my roomate told me the situation she's in, i quickly call one old dancing friend that i know can deliver the task given....mimey. She came and regimentedly show the dancer's dicipline to these non dancer background. When i observe, the things she did is not even 1/10 of the normal dicipline but yet the respond was quite 'awkward' among the participants. that brings back old memory...gosh!! suddenly i realised....how much i miss dancing!

Interesting Tuesday

2009-11-17T18:44:00.000+08:00

We go places today and got lots of book reference which i can use for our research. Above all that what intrigue most was knowing one attitude, should i perceive it negatively or positively?. Alas, these are the people who are high in standard but low in common sense.

When we went for our research, i got the opportunity to meet a senior from lost school (i hate that school to be precise). The meeting bring me down to memory lane and heck.....i still HATE THE SCHOOL.

One mother's tale

2009-11-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

Planning your day ahead

2009-11-16T19:58:00.000+08:00

When given a task, i believe we should first understand what the whole project is about. Understand what is needed and plan your action vs time vs cost in order to get the upmost effective outpt of it. What's the point of going out without any lead what to do , where to go and who to liase with?. Com'on please..let your action reflect your word..only then poeple will know ..you are not doing your job blindly...for heaven sake!.

Miscommunication

2009-11-15T16:28:00.001+08:00

Communication must go two ways. If it goes one way..then it is called communication breakdown. There are ways to avoid this so called communication breakdown. It must start with...communicating informations. We cannot expect people to know the things we knew and one can never say.."then you should ask me first".Question is ...how on earth you ask something that you don't know?. Alas.....one must have the checklist to avoid "things" from happening. So ...patient my editorial board friends..i understand the situation...been there done that.

Radical or Just Plain Different

2009-10-21T00:43:00.000+08:00

There are many factors contributing to the way people perceive things and how they respond against certain issues. Such factors like education level, culture, belief and of course background.

I believe each one of us do experience having a different opinion against a certain issue during meeting etc. Some may have encounter it dozens of times. My question now, is being different in thinking is considered radical or just plain different. That comes back to how we perceive these ‘thinking’.

If expressing one thought as equal as giving advice , then let me quote Samuel Johnson’s “Advice is seldom welcome , and those who need it most like it the least”. It’s either you want to hear what you want to hear or you hear what you need to hear. There is a define line between “need” and “want”. Choose wisely, that decision determine the person you are .

Expressing one thought in a diplomatic yet effective way would be one tricky art . One art I strongly suggest each of us to master for our future benefit. There are few books out there I would suggest like “360o Leader” or “How To Win Friends and Influence People” to name a few. I myself still reading it and reread it. Practise make perfect and the people around us is actually a human lab that we can manipulate to exercise the suggestion from these books.

Put it in a nutshell, it’s either being “different” or “radical” is what I called “colours of thinking” and one is in the upperhand of making decision if he has all “these colours “ to analyse and decide on a decision. What ever the person next to you is , kindly note that it’s better to understand first and be understood later.

Tomorrow is eid

2009-09-19T20:20:00.000+08:00

So it's confirm, eid will fall on sunday. Wishing every muslim a happy and jouyous eid. let us all pray for peace an tranquility for every1 regardless religion and skin. Amin.

Enough with small talks

2009-09-18T17:24:00.000+08:00

You are who you are by the 5 people you have around. That makes me realise that its time for me to move forward , leave behind those that hold me back and start mingling with positive people. people that believe that they can shape the world and life of others, not selfishly think of themselves. As En Nazim says "if u r a highflyers, don't downgrade urself, coz when the time come for u to realize that u'r holding urself back..it's already too late". Thanks En Nazim, you have shown me a new door. Enough with small talks, it now about big thoughts and it's time to walk the talk.

The hearts shatters to smytherine

2009-09-18T17:21:00.000+08:00

Can u imagine being misunderstood by close friends?..and along that process you tend to learn more about the true colour of them?. i guess the word "don't be too close with anyone" do remind me why i was never destined to get too close with others. i accept people as who and what they are..quesion is do they accept me as who and what i am?. to be or not to be.

Should i....should i not

2009-07-14T06:45:00.000+08:00

something happen to me during my last module.it makes my left feet felt numb. the thing is, should i just direct discuss this to the 'that guy'. will the decision be on my side or will it make me anothe RTU candidate?.

Check and balance

2009-06-30T08:41:00.000+08:00

Being in a group of excellent people do have the downside...when they fail to listen, thinking one is better than the others. so what to do ?. I keep my silence (while i can still bear it)..until it explode...hua hua hua....don't u juz like it when at the end, you have the golden oppurtunity to say " I TOLD U SO!".....

The gruelling module- I made it

2009-06-20T18:43:00.001+08:00

Thank god i got through the most gruelling and scariest (among the participants) module in my course...it's the army module. Put aside the fainted scene, the crying scene and of course the tense during that module, i was amazed that i really got through it. It taught me tons of valuable things, stuff that no word can describe. Taught me about a true meaning of friendship etc.So ..yeah..35 with 3 kids, i made it!!!! Chayo!!

My army experience

2009-06-06T22:59:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow will be marked in my life as the day i went for the army , it's a part of the course i'm attending.i set my mind that i'm going to learn new stuff, see new things and meet new people (make friends, network whichever works!!)along the way. Why i do this? because i believe i can, bcoz of my husband's sacrifices as well as my children and becoz i want it to be done with!!!.by the way...i'm close to my cupcakes!!!!that heal the wound

My pillar of strength

2009-05-26T13:45:00.000+08:00

I never dream to do wall climbing let alone to do a solo walk in the middle of the night in the middle of the jungle!!. but i did that.!!.honestly i was shivering like H&## to do the wall climbing, my only motivation was....thinking that my babies is on top of that wall waiting for me...and with that on my mind, i succeeded!. That is what " the power of mind " can do!!.

Reassesing my life, my goal.

2009-05-14T04:50:00.000+08:00

this morning i reassess myself. what is my priority?my vision?, my mission?why out of a sudden?well...i'm not young. that is 1 hard facts.i believe i gettin bored with my current comfort zones. that's why.

Pasir Gudang Highway Jam ...yet AGAIN

2009-04-23T10:02:00.000+08:00

Within this one week, 3 jams!!!!.I encounter one at PG..then another stupid jamm b4 tmn Daya...HALLO MPPG ker, MBJB ker, IRDA ker, JKR ker...don't you guys realize this...r you guys doing anything bout this?...PG have 2 ..i repeat that TWO!!!! port...if this is the infrastructure you gave...come on man...GET REAL!!!!

Preparing for a 6 mth course

2009-04-23T03:38:00.001+08:00

the date is near for me to go. im bz trying to documented all my assignments...Q is how far a person would undertake an unfinished job?.maybe this new replacement will do better than me, that's good..at least i leave it to a good hand; since i'm not planning of coming back...not to that office. .at last not yet. can't bear the expenses of fuel , time , let alone the lethargic !...phew...i do luv my job...at least i'm not doing the job i've been doing for 6 years!...then again, when you want something..ask for the price tag. if you can bear the price tag, then go for it. as for my pasrt, i'm looking beyond that...the experience on my RS. wish me loads of luck!!

Workload

2009-04-15T16:09:00.001+08:00

tons of work..none could be done..........i luvvvvvvvvvv my job

What comes around goes around

2009-04-10T19:29:00.000+08:00

it was very fascinating to me when my boss told me bout his son's experience in a scholarship's interview. he told us that his son was not very happy when the interviewer seems to demotivate him from gaining the precious scholarship and then he ask the interviewer back..."how come those people who come with BMW, Mercedez or Jaguar are also entitled in this scholarship?.he kept telling his son to stay true to the 'Melayu' line. Guess why i say fascinating?....it's becoz it reminds me back abt me, my 'scholarship' day and my debate with my late dad about 'justice' and the crap and curroption in the so called transparency of govt's policy. obviously after 20 years....the shit is still there....i wonder.it was me facing that time 20 years ago, now i'm watching someone else facing the same thing....as they say "WHAT COMES AROUND GOES AROUND"

U r never too old

2009-04-09T13:30:00.000+08:00

i enroll for a 16 course swimming class last tuesday. that was actually my prep for the 6 mth course i'll b attending. i was very sceptical at 1st since ....let get real ok...i'm 35..let me repeat that..thirty five of age...that is not THAT young anymore. But then i realize, it's not about what people perceive in me, it's about me being prepared to my future ahead. people cannot help me in my future, i have to prepare myself for my future. so i realize....u r never too old for anything positive, anything that benefit you in a long run...suddenly i remember my old quote, i live with the people not by the people.....aha!!!! she's back!!!!.

Facing the future

2009-04-06T01:17:00.000+08:00

no one knows what future hold for them. as a believer and doer, i believe we need to set goal in our life. and as a doer i set my target reasonably (to my standard). i listen to this guy brian bruno about being 'present' and that straight capture my interest. " to be in ur child memories tomorrow, u must be present in their life today" would best said about the summary i made after listening to him. i'm workaholic person, it is always about my career because at the end it is all about giving the best to my child...but being workaholic has a bad side...i lost precious time with my babies.so now, i alter my goal..and i hope for the best of tomorrow. start with ..put what is the big picture 1st, then fill it up with a much smaller and less later..then my life will be full...hey...you only live once!

Being a leader

2009-04-05T12:07:00.000+08:00

Ever encounter a dominant character in ur workplace? i believe this is quite common especially for those who just join a new organisation .

so u met with these characters who in most cases the 'otai' people in the organisation and commonly level of education is secondary or maybe lower. The big Q is if being put in the shoe of the head dept, what do u do, how do u react? how do u respond?..it tickles me when a collegue once express her opinion "usually HR will just transfer this difficult people..that's the best methos"...well it is the best method......transfering the problem to other people!. i strongly disagree in transfering people without counseling them first.

u see this characters believe they have support fr their kind (which they do) but why this support arises?...answer is simple...they do something wrong...u whack the tail...not the head .so ur expressing to the wrong people. i cannot accept ' org tu memang dah cam tuh...tak leh nak ubah" statement...have u tried talking direcly to them?have u tried to understand their issue? have u TRIED TO EXPREESS UR UNEASINESS TOWARDS THIER ATTITUDE?..if the answer is all no..then what different are they from u my friend?....

Peple use to judge me 'the brutal' approach person...now let me ask, with this approach...who is much brutal?....."a reminder to friends and especially to myself".